19 June 2016;

Okay i was up all night thinking whether my life is ever as perfect as everyone else or is it just me who is overthinking which has always been the case when i thought something was off. Because c'mon...we girls are always like this, we always overacting towards small problem. No matter how small it is you won't give it a break. Believe me, that's why people say that girls are complicated because yes they are absolutely freakin' complicated. Okay when i meant 'girls' i meant ALL GIRLS. No exception! 

Well speaking of complicated, I was actually thinking whether i made the right decision to go to France and continue my studies there for 5 years. Honestly speaking, it took me a lot of guts and courage to step foot on this program 2 years back then when i was no where closer to maturity yet. At that time my thought was like "Oh i got to fly to France lah, how awesome!.." Then i apply for this course which i thought would be damn easy because we only need 10/20 to pass. Woa hold it there sweetie...you just decided to make your life even worse. That's what i thought when i first started Pre France program. Yes, it wasn't as easy as it seems. But know what? I've made it! I've finally finished this program and i have no idea how i managed to do it. For heaven sake, I've been through a lot just to get to where i am right now and how on earth would i ever stop my desire to study abroad? I have been dreaming about it since i was a kid. Not to mention all this while i worked my ass off so that i can go somewhere outside Malaysia, be independent and be more mature. I guess most of you here have the same dream, aren't you? Dont be silly of course you guys do...

Tell you what, I've been away with my family since i was 13 years old. They sent me to a boarding school until i graduated because they thought i need to be independent. And yes up until now i think that was the right decision to make because i became stronger day by day each time i'm away from  my love one. Therefore, i wouldn't really mind being away from them even if it takes me to fly across other continent just to be sure that i can really be independent. By doing so, i can also learn to love myself more and appreciate the little things that goes around me. It is time for me to take a huge step in  my life and try to discover something new about myself. To find the true me, and be someone who is worthy of living. Not the me who is always fooling around and doesn't really care of what happen around her. Always take things for granted and etc. But now, now i realised that everything that has happened make sense. I need to step outside my comfort zone and take this one in a lifetime opportunity to show the world what I am capable of doing. Definitely, i think i have made the right decision. So yes ladies and gentlemen, my adventure is calling. 

Much love, Tia.

27 May 2016;

Wanderlust. A strong desire to travel and explore the world. Who knows twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than the ones you did do. Take this time and opportunities that you have to sail away from the safe harbor, explore, dream and discover. Anywhere our feet and our hearts take us...we should go, experience and breathe something new. It's not like we have the same opportunity again in our lifetime. Today's travelling is not the same as that of years ago because thanks to technology, no longer we can feel homesick from places we have never been before. It only takes a second for us to call home and talk with our love ones. So why do we bother to keep on hold of our dreams the moment we know all of that is definitely possible today.

I am the kind of person who values experience more than money will ever be. The experience that can never be bought with money. Hence, why I wish to put my wanderlust as primary. I haven't been to many places before but I have it all on my wishlist. Of course, like I said it's not wrong to dream because the future will take you there when you believe in it. What most of us don't realize all the time, is the decision that we make are mostly at the expense of someone else. The decisions that are hinder by the opinions and feelings of other people. At least I'm aware of it. It's up to you guys to believe me or not but I believe desire and faith come in handy when you feel like giving up. 

So not long ago, I've made a life-changing decision that I believe will help me for my future endeavors. Let alone all the negative mindset I choose to follow my own path and making my own decision for what I want to be one day. I have to admit that it is not easy to make a decision that can satisfy everyone....come to think of it, it is you who decide what's best for you. The choice is in your hand. 

Et voila, peut-etre qu'il est un peu vague pour dire cela, mais  je pense que j'ai choisi la bonne voie. Comme ca, je suis sure que j'aurais une bonne qualite de vie. Je voyagerais, decouvrirais des nouvelles choses, rencontrerais des gens...et bien, ce qui est tres important, c'est que moi, je serais tres heureux! 

A bientot! 

Much love, Tia

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